Thursday, 30 September 2010

insha Allah

everytime you feel like you cannot go on,
you feel so lost,
that you're so alone,
all you see is night,
and darkness all around.

don't despair & never loose hope.
cause Allah is always by your side.

insha Allah.
insha Allah.
insha Allah, you'll find your way...

WWS ; who would have thought nasyid could be something beautiful yet meaningful like this. :)

Wednesday, 15 September 2010

itsy bitsy of Syawal :)



theme for the day was Black & White. 
so everyone's wore Black & White. hehe.
oowh.we had this theme every year.where on the very first day ( only first day ) itself,
 we all have to wear the same colour. :)
like last year, we had Orange. :) gonna request Turqoise for next year *wink* 

Adinda s'

Kanda s'

Vroomm Vroomm. Balik Kampungggg :)

Okay.traffic light merah.snap satu :)
oowh. satu tiga dua.ngee

Full Stomach :)) hehe

Natalia Anatasia, Nawal Syibra, Syaziela, Syameem Safra

photography by : Syafika. ( nak jugak kan? ;P )

motherly sisterly :) 

psst : Ayah is usual, he didn't really enjoy taking picture.haha

Sunday, 12 September 2010

still breathing..

in the name of Merciful Allah, i'm still standing here.

what happen yesterday, really make me realize, how precious our life is...

it was 4 o'clock in the evening. i started the car sister walked & got into the car.
the other one was still with my aunts & uncles.laughing.shaking hands.hand full with 'duit raya'.
she walked into the car as well.the three of us were in the same car.
i looked on my right.
another dad was still talking to my uncle.through the car window.
they shook a sign of making ways to the next house.
another two sisters of mine.& my mum were in the car.
i changed my sight.infront of iswara.
my uncle's family.
these three cars convoyed to my hometown.since it's raya.

i waited for them to make a move.
we chatted in the car.
til my dad make the move.
to the next house.

omg.the road were full with cars.
 not so many.but my goodness.the speed make them look more than the actual number.
i have to make a go to the another's about 10minutes journey before i reached my grandma sister's house.
oowh yes. the cars.
fast.too fast...
we said a little prayers as usual.

10 minutes later..
we reached there.
in order to really get there, we have to make cross a junction.
from my car, i can already see them.
my uncles.
those small ones..
they were running & chasing one another.
oowh.i almost made it.this is the first time i drove this far.
but the road was too busy.the cars were speeding like mad.
i thought 'kampung' don't have this kind of traffic.
well, my uncle & my dad crossed the junction.
oowh shoot.i got left behind.couldn't make it.the cars were speeding..

'right after this red car, should be okay.the next car is still far behind'.said my sister.
looking at the car, i agreed with her.
red car passed by.& this is it.
here we go!
i crossed.the coming car was still far.
okay, this should be okay.

oowh shoot! there's a hole!
i turned the steering to avoid from getting into the hole & tried to make it.



i was blur.very very blur indeed.
i don't know what to do. i heard my aunt's screaming. 
from what i could still remember, i saw..
my dad, my mum & my uncles ran towards our car. 
i saw so many people pulled over.
i was very very shocked.
i don't know what to do.
my uncle asked me to unlock the door.
i did.& he asked my sisters & i to get out from the car.
i listened to him. i was like a hypnotized person.
just listen & couldn't think.
i don't even pulled the hand break nor i stopped the car properly.

i was very shocked.& i was shivering.
i got out from the car.& as i stood on the ground, i felt really weak.
it's like my legs couldn't bear to support my body.
my knees were shivering.i lost my sight for a while.
my mum grabbed me, & brought me to the sisters were crying.traumatized.

& from far, i could see them argued.
the driver blamed me & my uncles blamed him.
the coming car didn't even slow down the car.instead, he tried to change the lane.
expecting me to make it through.
but luck was not in our side..
his front part of his car was a total wrecked.
mine, on the other hand, a minor damaged at the back tyre.but still, my car couldn't move anymore.unlike his.

i looked at my one bruises.
i looked at myself.none as just my right hand & head were hardly bang to the the door.
luckily i put on my seatbelt. 

after a while, we went to the police station to make a report.
both side has been fined.
my car has been brought to the workshop & the driver make his way back home.

but most of all, i thanked God so much for still giving me this chance to stay alive.
i think twice.
there were so many possibilties that might happen after being knocked down by the car.
too many possibilities.
but He still give us chances.
if this is not because His mercy,
i won't be here anymore.
writing.& telling you guys this.
thank you ya Allah..
Syukran ya Allah...

this has been one of the unforgettable moment of my life.
& this incident has teached me lessons.
to be more careful.
to always try to improve.
to always love my family.
& to treasure my life when i still have it.

i praised Allah for still giving me this chance. 
eventhough i'm still traumatized of steering.
& eventhough, at first, i refused to get on the car.
& eventhough, i still had this incident keep on running in my head.
i still praised Allah & be grateful of this good health He gave.& still giving.

this is a true story of me on the 2nd day of Syawal.which was yesterday.
be more careful. & don't take anyone, including yourself, for granted. 
for me, i'm still traumatized.but i won't just stop here.
& i thanked Allah for still giving me chance to grab my dreams.

what i had, might sound simple compare to what we've heard or watched on TVs.
but for me, this is huge.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri everyone.
Maaf Zahir Batin.